Waiting, looking at the calendar, counting the days, weeks, months, years. The calendar is something I am very in tune with, whether it is my google calendar on my phone, or the National Conservancy calendar in the hall next to the kitchen, or the calendar next to my desk, I seriously am a calendar person. I have always loved setting goals, and having something or somewhere to look forward to, whether it is a staycation or an international trip, a wedding across the country, or a family holiday, it gives me hope that the hard work will pay off, and some sigh of relief and relaxation, as well as fun and laughs are ahead.
As an adult student having taken a hiatus while following the Eastern arts teaching path for many years, finishing my degrees at this point in my life has been a major waiting game and lesson in patience. It is hard because as a student my income is very low, and this puts pressure on other parts of my life. So, the biggest piece to waiting is waiting to make some money! I am really looking forward to having a more lucrative job, in order to be more free and flexible with my finances, as well as my nights and weekends, which now are infiltrated by homework, writing, and research.
At the same time, it has been such a blessing to delve into the area of study, learning, connecting with other students and professors, and really take an invested interest in the subjects I've been introduced to. Yes, I waited quite a long time to go back to school, I had a family, a career, and a child since last going to school! But, it has been humbling and so eye-opening in many regards. Although I've been waiting and counting down the years, months, and weeks to graduation, I am also going to miss just learning for learning's sake.
It's a bit nerve-wracking at the same time, to have been out of the job market for a while, and to be ready to take on a full-time full-responsibility occupation. Going back to work full time also represents the end of my son's babyhood. He is 4.5 and will be 5 going on 6 by the time I go back to work full time. As a single parent for the past four years, my full time unpaid job has been caregiver and guardian for my son, and shifting into him being in school and me being at work full time will be so huge for both of us. I am so ready for it, but at the same time it feels bittersweet, a rite of passage, a time that we can never return to.
So, while I am anxiously awaiting getting into the work world, and field of communications, I am going to enjoy the days over the next year with my son, with my classes and with the research that will help guide me to the right organization or company.
Tick, tock, tick, tock.
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